not built for love

People come and go
As I sit in this coffee shop
Sharing a drink with a friend
With, of course, our group of friends.

People talk and then don't,
It's the same case for me actually
Except, they find someone to love
After we have talked.

Maybe I'm too focused on my studies?
Well, I am.
But there are days when you want someone...
And then he just comes into mind involuntarily.

I read the papers in front of me
But when our eyes meet,
Everything else didn't seem to matter
Except for him and the paper I'm holding.

You see, there's this friend --- a close one.
And I can't break the wall between us
Even when our hands touch,
Reaching for the same cup of drink.

Do you think he feels the tension?
The electricity rocking my whole body?
The thoughts running through my mind?
The drum in my heart beating louder and faster?

But I can't cross the line drawn
Even when we click and talk about a lot of things
And walk side by side daydreaming of golden rings...
It feels right yet so wrong, just like puzzle pieces.

Do my friends ever notice
The admiring eyes over my friendly gaze?
My excited and grinning smile over his tall stature?
Yes, I'm aware they light up when I see him.

We have a good chemistry,
Something I know and admit
I am not one to be mistaken
Of platonic from romantic 

But our stars don't align,
I don't think we'll ever be.
Thus, this is something I can't risk.
Then, I think I might not be built for love.