love is a reward

 

I want to receive love

but I feel like I don't deserve one.

I want to feel love too 

but love feels like a reward.

Something I earn 

by doing something good.

And not something given to me 

just because I exist.

How many times

do I have to pray and beg

for love to come along

and wrap my heart in warmth?

Everyone says,

"We all deserve love"

But to me,

it only feels like a reward.